"...I can't tell you for certain that things will be different, because I don't know what your past experience was, but...I do know my son." [he threads his fingers together in his lap] "And I know that, despite how he first came off...he doesn't want to hurt you."
[He kind of has to take that on faith, which is. A lot. And anyway, then that just means that Edward's going to be the one fucking things up, which is no better.]
"I...don't believe that is the case, either." [Elijah's lips press together, and he looks down at his hands]
"Oswald...never had many friends. He was always the odd one out, even as a child. Even now he has...well. He has co-workers. Colleagues. He's always been alone, save for us and now...he is completely alone, in a lot of ways." [he pauses, glancing over at Edward] "I believe you, as well, are familiar with that. As am I. And when you're offered something different than that; the chance to not be alone any longer, it's...well. It can be rather terrifying, can't it?"
[Edward's eyes are fixed on the floor. He doesn't look over at Elijah at all. He... doesn't think he can, right now, honestly.
Because, yeah. It is terrifying. He's got that completely right. And a part of Edward just wants to fight this whole thing, whatever it is. Just run away now, before it can get ruined. At least then it can be a nice memory.]
...Shouldn't he find someone better to be around than me? [Because it isn't right, that Oswald should be all alone, but. But he's not the answer to that. He shouldn't be.] I'll screw this up. Sooner or later. I know I will.
"...if there's one thing I've learned, it's that screwing up is just...that's part of relationships. All relationships. It's about whether the people in that relationship are willing to come back and try and work things out or not, and whether those screw ups can be overcome."
[Edward goes quiet. He doesn't... really know what to say, to that. Because it makes sense. Sure. That seems... correct, probably.
It's just hard imagining anything like that, because it's always just been waiting for people to get sick and tired of him and then they'd send him away or leave and... that's just how things are, for him. Something else just seems impossible.
It'd be nice, to keep this. The thought of that for real is terrifying. How can it be both at once...?
"I...understand if it's too frightening to think about right now. But you were talking about the end of the week, so...if you need to, you can leave the thought of it until then. It's a lot to think about."
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Not that it really matters. This is only for the rest of the week and then... that'll be that.
[He'll get a place. And then he won't get to see Oswald anymore.]
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"You...don't want to see him after this week?"
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[He says it like a simple statement of fact. Like it should be obvious.]
Better than sitting around and waiting to see how this gets ruined. No, thanks...
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"...is it? Better for everyone?" [he rubs his thumb over his own knuckles] "I think Oswald would miss you dearly."
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The thought of someone missing him is just... too ridiculous.]
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...In my experience, that's a red flag.
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The last time I thought things were going okay, I...
[He trails off. Gripping his sleeve again. He kind of doesn't want to think about that too much.]
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"...I'm assuming it ended poorly."
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[Very poorly, judging from the bitter and hollow tone in his voice.]
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...He'll get tired of me eventually, though.
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"Oswald...never had many friends. He was always the odd one out, even as a child. Even now he has...well. He has co-workers. Colleagues. He's always been alone, save for us and now...he is completely alone, in a lot of ways." [he pauses, glancing over at Edward] "I believe you, as well, are familiar with that. As am I. And when you're offered something different than that; the chance to not be alone any longer, it's...well. It can be rather terrifying, can't it?"
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Because, yeah. It is terrifying. He's got that completely right. And a part of Edward just wants to fight this whole thing, whatever it is. Just run away now, before it can get ruined. At least then it can be a nice memory.]
...Shouldn't he find someone better to be around than me? [Because it isn't right, that Oswald should be all alone, but. But he's not the answer to that. He shouldn't be.] I'll screw this up. Sooner or later. I know I will.
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It's just hard imagining anything like that, because it's always just been waiting for people to get sick and tired of him and then they'd send him away or leave and... that's just how things are, for him. Something else just seems impossible.
It'd be nice, to keep this. The thought of that for real is terrifying. How can it be both at once...?
...He stays silent.]
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[Put it off until later. That sounds fine. He'd love to not think about this for now.
Or forever. That'd be good, too.]
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[Sleep sounds great. He'll just... get up. Right, yeah. Time to get ready and just pass out for a while.]
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